Embarking on a New Journey...
I am 24 years old and I well and truly believe that we all want and need to love ourselves. I believe that for myself and for my clients that doing that can be overwhelmingly difficult. I believe this because of my own thoughts and feelings and because of the conversations (many conversations) with my female clients. It is such a daring thought to believe you are beautiful but I think it's something we deserve as children of God. I dont believe my God would want me to think badly of His creation and that it's my duty to take care of it mentally and physically and it is really effing hard. What with cute, thin friends, a happily adjusted boyfriend who would be happy at any weight and a mother who knows how to cook well and has taught me how to cook I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle. And truth be told I am happy eating, I love good food and the conversations that come with good food more than the food itself but if I'm truly honest I am jealous of the women I shoot. I am jealous that they have the courage to sit in front of me and flaunt what they've got, they inspire me every day to love myself but I want to be able to do what they do. I want to be strong and beautiful just like them and so I've decided to do something about it. I've joined Lindora.
Lindora is a medical weight loss program that coincidentally one of my clients told me about. (She lost 50 pounds and I bet you couldn't tell her from any of the other thin-all-my-life clients). Lindora boasts "Lean for life!". That the lessons they teach you will change your relationship with food. And
although food and I are very good friends I think my relationship needs some boundaries. So here I am embarking on this journey. I'm going to try to write about my feelings, cravings, and hopefully success here so that if you're reading this you'll know that I'm trying to practice what I preach. My mom always says, "If you don't like something, Change it." And that's what I intend to do.
The Lean for Life book that comes with the program
Me as I write this at 197.5 lbs. We'll see if my face gets thinner too!
Wish me luck!!
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